A drifted thought,….
So…..this was supposed to have gone up on the net for
sumtime..hahah…and its like this….
Sitting at the café…my mind mingles as I let time pass off
waiting for an established connection….its a long wait…..and of false hopes it
gave, it let me down. When I was of such high spirits and enthusiasm to refill
myself with the joy of the borderless world, to run from the emptiness and deep
dark tunnel I unconsciously dug n hid myself in…..it jus gave me a heartless
shudder n left me….. Frustration I have not….for I have had bruised myself for
a time too long…somehow an immunity towards such feelings ceased to exist in
me.
I was a mixture of such frustrations I was almost falling
and drowning in a world of fallacies. I was, at a time, the happiest; I was, at
a time, the most frustrated, and at a time, in a most hurtful situation, and of
it, there were dreams which dragged my feet off reality. I began to get
astray….too far from what I am……bonding myself with what I’m not. I lost myself
in a milky way…wandered in a space of uncertainty….and found myself pitifully
looking at the evil eyes of the world I live in. I grew small, I lost faith…..I
abandoned my belief…I was thrown in a hidden world unknown to me…where even the
tiniest spark of happiness would be dampened….I desired to be alone…to well up
a concoction of feelings…I wanted to bury them in the furthest part of space….
And then……ohh….a sudden pang of hunger dragged me off , back
to where I am….looking back….it seemed I walked myself into a journey of my
partially evil-psycho like twin in me…..Pheww…..I have no idea…but I guess I gt
try and book myself a ticket to the realm of wireless webs b4 it’s a pull bac
to…ohh…..pls….don’t growl…><….pull bac to…..cafe??…..of….I’m at the
café…..but……no sign of cash on me….just some traces of …………mmm..dear Dr.
Jekyll….where art thou?
